The Sad Life of Chinese Girl Li Anjian

If it weren’t for stumbling upon a short video,who could imagine that in 2023, there would still be girls living in such hardship.

In the short video, she added special effects to herself, but couldn’t hide the clarity in her eyes.

In the video, she half-jokingly and half-heartbrokenly talks about her experiences.

Born without a father or mother, without a name.

She was placed in an orphanage from a young age.

No one loved her, but she loved herself fiercely and gave herself the name Li Anjian, hoping for a life of peace and health.

But fate played a cruel trick on this unfortunate soul. In early February this year, Li Anjian’s treatment was ineffective, and she left this world.

Since the day she was born, Li Anjian had been abandoned by her parents, and she never knew what they looked like.

She lived in the orphanage until the age of 15. According to regulations, she packed her bags and set foot into society.

In order to have a meal to eat, Li Anjian could only knock on the doors of various shops to apply for jobs.

But the owners all rejected her because she was underage.

Only a small restaurant allowed her to wash dishes and provided accommodation, but she never received a penny of salary.

Even so, Li Anjian is filled with gratitude.

Because she no longer has to endure a hungry stomach and can have a warm meal every day.

On her 18th birthday, Li Anjian gave herself an expensive gift.

It was a lipstick she bought from a two-yuan store. She had never eaten a snack or had a toy since she was little, so this was truly a luxury for her.

She held the black lipstick in her hand, and although it may have seemed cheap and inferior to others, in Li Anjian’s eyes, it was a precious treasure.

After finishing washing the dishes at night, she returned to her dormitory, which was even more rudimentary than a warehouse. She washed her face and carefully applied the lipstick in front of the mirror. She didn’t even want to remove it before going to sleep.

Later, business declined, and the boss drove Li Anjian away. She was back to square one, struggling to survive.

Without money to rent a room, she slept in the cold and hard corridors of hospital wards. She also lay on construction sites covered with broken bricks, gazing at the starry sky.

When she had no money, Li Anjian also resorted to doing bad things. With her small frame, she carried steel bars from construction sites and sold them at scrapyards to buy food. Her inner guilt kept her tossing and turning, unable to sleep.

But compared to maintaining kindness, it was more important to eat enough and survive.

In Li Anjian’s memories, she had taken on hundreds of odd jobs.

The only time she couldn’t hold back her tears was when she was handing out flyers on the street. She enthusiastically handed a flyer to a passerby, but the man quickly avoided her and disdainfully said, “Why are your hands so rough?”

She never cried when she couldn’t eat enough, nor did she cry when she couldn’t sleep because of the cold. But who doesn’t have a desire to be beautiful and some delicate thoughts? The man’s words pierced Li Anjian’s heart like a steel needle.

In the bustling streets, she still felt ashamed and buried her head by the roadside, her face turning red. She hadn’t done anything wrong; she just longed to be loved. However, this longing was like a dream, never a reality.

If that was all, Li Anjian might have struggled for a living. But misfortune always finds those who are already suffering. Since she was weak since childhood, after entering society, she began experiencing occasional abdominal pain. What she didn’t expect was that the disease had targeted her as well.

In September 2021, Li Anjian couldn’t bear the pain anymore. Counting her meager savings, she nervously went to the hospital. Worried that she wouldn’t be able to afford the medical expenses, she found herself sitting next to a little princess surrounded by a family who showed concern and care.

She closed her eyes and looked away, choosing to ignore the image she had yearned for countless nights. To make matters worse, the doctor directly informed Li Anjian that she had been diagnosed with uterine cancer. It was already in the advanced stage. Due to the severity of the condition, the doctor asked Li Anjian to call her parents to discuss the next course of treatment.

Li Anjian shook her head and said she didn’t have parents; she had only herself since birth. The doctor’s mouth twitched behind the mask. The frail Li Anjian remained relatively calm about the disease. She attributed it to her long-term use of cheap sanitary pads.

But she didn’t regret it because she simply couldn’t afford the expensive, well-packaged sanitary pads from the supermarket. She had done her best to survive.

Li Anjian’s health deteriorated rapidly, and the abdominal pain became relentless. It kept her awake all night. The hospital food was expensive, so whenever the nurse reminded her, Li Anjian pretended that she had already eaten.

She had no money for chemotherapy, and sleepless nights had become the norm for her.

Looking through the window at the night sky, Li Anjian couldn’t think of anyone she could miss.

The doctor informed Li Anjian that she had at most a little over a month left. With no parents or friends, Li Anjian signed the notification letter herself.

As the pen fell onto the paper with unusual force, she resented her parents. Why did they cruelly bring her into this world and not raise her? Why couldn’t she experience the taste of love?

Endless loneliness and sadness found an outlet on the internet. Li Anjian used video effects to record short videos, narrating her real experiences.

Her heart was scarred countless times, tears fell, but she raised her head and desperately suppressed them.

To vent her negative emotions, she apologized sentence by sentence. She didn’t expect her videos to generate a massive response on the internet.

However, along with goodwill came mixed with malice.

Under one video, a netizen asked her to share her payment QR code. “Even if it’s a scam, I would accept it. I didn’t expect someone to be so desperate in this world.”

Others wanted to take her out for good food and fun, dress up in traditional Chinese clothing together, put on lipstick, and take beautiful photos. Some even wanted to visit her at the hospital, claiming to live nearby.

But behind the goodwill was an abyss, with some heartlessly mocking her. “You’re just seeking attention by acting pitiful. You’re going crazy for fame.” Someone said, “I’ve heard enough of these stories. Why don’t you apply for welfare instead of creating a persona here?”

Facing both goodwill and skepticism, Li Anjian remained calm and sincerely thanked everyone for their kindness. She refused their offers of assistance, saying her illness was incurable, and it would be a waste of money.

Every word was filled with kindness. In the eyes of Dr. Zhou, Li Anjian was a sensible and heartwarming child who made one feel compassionate.

She never cried, no matter how much pain she endured, even when she had no money. She would even save some to feed stray cats. Dr. Zhou also mentioned that Li Anjian instructed him to close her account after she passed away. She would remember every person who had shown her kindness.

Now, all the videos in which Li Anjian poured out her heart have been deleted. Her account has been closed, and amidst the chaotic flow of information, she has fallen into silence.

From now on, she no longer has to endure the pain of this world. Although her account is closed, more netizens come pouring in.

The voices of online bullies are no longer heard, replaced by expressions of compassion and regret.

She was like a passing breeze before, but now her departure is grand and resounding.

At least what touched Li Anjian was the care and greetings from netizens during the last few months of her life. Perhaps those were the brightest days of her entire life.

The world is full of contrasts—warmth and coldness. Some are born with a silver spoon in their mouth, while others struggle and go hungry.

Being loved by someone is never a given in life. Perhaps there are many people like Li Anjian living in countless hidden corners.

They put all their strength into merely staying alive.

Perhaps, as we enjoy the love we receive, we should not forget the faint cries from afar.